SundayFunday #2.

World,
I am in love with my new hair, and also my eventful weekend. I ran, hiked, and ate to my heart content (ok more towards gulping down wonderful bittersweet drinks yums) all within these two days. And I got my car back! *THROWS GOLD GLITTERS AND CONFETTI*

I mean, wow hair you made me look like a passable cutie for once!

xx,
Me.

Things I'm Eternally Grateful for.

My brothers/my cats/my friends/my family/my social circle/my ability to shut down whenever I need to/my me time/my resilience/random(fun) conversations/random lovely encounters/that moment of realising that I am not completely alone (like today)/my quirks/my (i try to maintain it) health/that (Alhamdulillah) rezq' given for me to support me and my brothers/my lovely mom/the time I got to spent with her/music, my kind/people, my kind/a roof on top of my head/food that is almost always on the table/internet subscription/awesome series/cats in general/my Uni life/that I am single <3/broccoli/rocket leaves/mushroooms!/ok food/that I live in a world where beaches are pretty accessible whenever I want to/that I can still commute even though I have a car problem/Abah's trusts in me/ice creams/my virtual social circle/after work time.

xx,
Me.

SundayFunday.

I have not been driving for a month now and though part of me miss that, another part of me is enjoying this bit where I have this limitation of not going to things unless it is important to me.

It simplify things, and a lot more me time! You can never get enough of me time nowadays.

So, my Europe trip is in another 47 days! forty, seven, days.
It is a bit more than a month!
Excited!
But more so, i do not know what to pack.
Excited!
There will be fooooooood! I am gonna eat pizza in the land of pizza!
How cool is that? :D

This is the most random thing I've done so far. Man, i love me.

xx,
Me

Thrdvw.

(Source: yescyrus, via radical-illusion)

The year has not been going your way, poor D.
Interesting had happen, but they are temporary.
D is feeling restless, and hopeless.

But I can see somehow D will find a way out.
Poor, poor little D.

You'll get over this soon.
This too, shall pass.

xx,
Me.

Roadtrip #2.

Aaaah what a lovely weekend I'm having this week! <3
You know i read somewhere that we don't always acknowledge time we spent enjoying ourselves, like we never stop and take a step back to realise, "this is fun, I am happy, I am content, I love being around myself" -- you know?

Like you should at least say this to yourself "Ah, if this isn't life, I don't know what is"
I have weird set of friends, they are not weird themselves but if I take a good hard look at it I have such a diversified social circle sometimes I feel like what the heck, when did I manage to get into these lovely people's lives?

The sisters' set was too lovely for words. And, ohmygod having such a gorgeous house by the sea. What a view!

Spent most of last night with the bros out on the beach, I sang two new songs I made (on top of my head -- perasan ala ala freestyle la) and it made me realise how fun I can be at times. (Kasi can la okay I had a very stressful week)

If money is not an object I would love to bring Pops along for the roadtrip. InshaAllah, soon!
It warms my tiny little heart to see my bros having fun! <3

Alhamdulillah.

xx,
Me.

How?

I always have this set of burning questions no one seems to have the best answer to.

Answer them for me, please?
--
How the heck do you know that you've found the one?
How do you justify your feelings and how do you quantify it to be called "love"?
At what point you would know that the interest shown in you is genuine?
How do you react?
If after a while you find it flaky, how do you save your heart?
How do you save your face?
How do you act nonchalant even though the attention given is all you want but you know it is just not right?
How do you love fully, unconditionally?
How do you accept defeat?
How do you act all carefree and be really confident in whatever you are feeling?

Just, how?

xx,
Me.

Hello, again.

I do not know what is it with me and the constant need to run from things whenever life throws lemons at me.

I know I shouldve come up with millions recipes of lemonade variation by now.
"When life throws you lemon, you make lemonade" (? - me, forever lame but whatevrs)

--

I hope no one finds me here. Or at least no one I know.
Life has been a bit weird. I at one point really do my own company.
Also, I used to be so in love and passionate in what I (used to) do.

Not anymore.
Or not yet.
All I can think of is fill up my piggy bank and take a year off.
Off finding myself or off finding and be close to my Creator.

During my visit to Sabah last month, I had so many monologues and I have never felt that close with the Creator, i felt like sobbing of happiness. I see millions of stars (literally millions!) in the darkest night at 4am-ish hike and again, i felt like sobbing. I felt how tiny I was, how there are more to life than work, relationships, pleasing people and fitting in.

That I don't really need most of the things I want/have.

Y'know? Such an ethereal and surreal feeling.

Alhamdulillah for the chance of really pursuing my fitness project last year. I lost quite a bit, gained a bit of confidence like mad woman (I do feel like I'm way too much to handle sometimes, now) and somehow the pretty ok looking side of me that I never thought was there before.

I feel like this year is all about finding my Creator, be close to Him and let things be.

I hope my July project will become a reality and a smooth sailing at that. Looking forward to spend a bit of my time to learn how to fast outside of my comfort zone, be away from everyone and learn a thing or two of being a human being that is not tied to any nationality.

I hope I will find love, or love will find me because tbh, I need that. I think it is frikkin time.  (lol)

Maybe I should really saves up and see where my bank account can take me, no?

xx,
Me.