Is Your Love Big Enough?

I kept finding myself looking up pages after pages on MBTi traits lately. I used to believe that although I am an ISTJ on paper, behavioral wise I am a true INTJ.

I am intrigued by this to say the least.

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In the past, I was easily inspired by random strangers. I have this HUGE unexplainable admiration towards them - of which some resulted in a friendship. Not too shabby.
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2004
Met S (we're friends now, sorta) through my random blog hopping and she write all the right words.
Great taste in music, and movies.
I will always refer her to a sunshine because she just is - always with huge smile, positive posts and made me all happy to live life.

(I was having severe depression at the time)

I remembered I started to listed to The Spill Canvas because of her, too.

She micro-blogs now though and still, writes beautifully.

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2008
I met Boston girl (online of course) and she has this interesting way of telling mundane happenings in her blog that whenever there is a new entry, I wish she would post another one, and another one so that I can keep on reading her every word.

She took great candid, vintage-y pictures too. She made me plan a trip to Boston, which I don't know when exactly I will buy that plane ticket, but it is in the pipeline, trust me.

But sometimes in 2011, she went on a hiatus and I moved on with life. Until I found her blog again in 2014. (YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HAPPY THAT DAY WAS FOR ME)

However, she stopped writing online, and continue to pursue writing a book. 
Sad, but happy for her.

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2015
And then I met A. He was pretty ordinary, friendly and humble. Nothing to shout about.
At the same time, I was having a major girl crush on X - and some random encounters made me stumble upon A's instagram feed. Boy I was so fucking wrong, he was the most interesting person that I could ever be acquainted with.

I don't know whether it is due to the sudden discovery and admiration of things he rather not boast about, or that he is perfectly my type (Tall, smart, humble, resourceful) - I asked him out to hang with me and the girls (which the girls were briefed that they would be my wingwomen for the night).

He was cool about it. But then later I found out that he was engaged. (my heart :'( )

However, having to know A for that short period of time, changed me. Like, I want to do better in life. I want to know more things. I want to be resourceful.

And then I plan my self discovery trip because my thoughts were super overwhelming, I needed a foreign land to think of things.

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2016
You write effortlessly and with such content.

And, this, in return is making me feel and keeping going back to the days that I find joy in such writings.
I need to start again, though you don't know me, but thank you. You moved me.

:)

xx,
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