Taking my first step into recovery (or at least would help to lessen whatever things that I have been fighting for for the last 6 months) -- I'm scared.
Did today's 1 Page AT A TIME page and it was this: A list of people that I can always call.
The categories are:
1. Best friend // 2. A Parent // 3. Cool Sibling // 4. Less Cool Sibling // 5. Favorite Aunt // 6. Owes Me A Favor // 7. Has A Car // 8. Always Ready to Party // 9. Knows Everything // 10. Knows Just Enough // 10. Grandparent // 11. 1 More.
I am ashamed to say that, out of 11, I only have a few names came to mind.
How my life has deducted so many social interactions that I only have these few people which to be honest, I don't think I'm on their list.
Or, to be really honest, no one is on my speed dial anymore.
I feel rather sad knowing that, I sort of only have me if anything. (And Allah, I know, I know.)
Fuck, this is making me feel worse.
